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May 1, 2010
Flight time was not that much longer than just 1 hour and 10 minutes from Kathmandu. As If I am in domestic flight. But reality is I was in international flight. On that day when I left Kathmandu thousands of people in red-shirt were passing through the street in Kathmandu chanting slogan against government. I thought I should have postponed my traveling day to Dhaka but it was not in my hand as I had to reach there at any cost, so instead of waiting in home I dared to go to airport despites road was blocked everywhere by cadres of CPN Maoist. On the way to airport rally made my taxi stopped, I scared thinking if someone stone at my taxi, however, I had no option than to reach airport in time. I, when reached to airport, came to know that flight time has changed which I am not able to convey to the hotel in Dhaka, but later I received the call from hotel as pick up van was waiting in Dhaka airport. Finally I say my wife bye and flew high to reach Dhaka.
The thing made me surprised when I boarded Biman Bangladesh I saw more than 90% passengers on that plane were Nepali going to Malaysia. I found almost all travelers were boarding for the first time, leaving country with a great hope of earning a lot of money in foreign land, and bring that back to home. From whom I talked to knew why he was going Malaysia is to earn good amount of money. Why did he need much money to earn? He answers 'he has a dream of getting married after he got back from Malaysia, but he couldn't earn money if he didn't leave country.' I came to know from him that his elder brother has also left home for Gulf country, and now he also decided to go leaving his old parents alone at home in Saptari. This was not the story he told me but it was a story of almost all youth who were going to Malaysia dreaming they will have bright future once they have money. But pity thing I noticed from the behavior they showed in the plane that they even haven't been told how to do the safe travel. They were behaving as if they don't know even miner things. Cabin crew in entire flight were requesting them take a sit belt, don't move, so on and on, it seemed to me that they were just listening that but not accepting. Everyone was sticking their hand at ring bell, no body know what is the purpose of the button seen there in the plane.
Yes, finally, I am landed. I saw vehicle waiting for me. I saw a person waving hand for me, with beautiful smile he was welcoming me. Finally I entered in to the city of Dhaka.

जिन्दगी कहिलेकाँही सारै दिक्क लाग्दो हुदो रहेछ । मनमा जे जस्तो उत्साह र उमंग भएपनि त्यसलाई त्यही रुपमा कायम राखिरहन मुस्किल पर्दोरहेछ । सोच्छु एकथोक, हुन्छ अर्को थोक । खुशी खोज्न सारै गारो । गीत सुनेको थिएँ शान्ति खोजुँ म कहाँ? अहिले मलाई त्यस्तै लाग्छ खुशी खोजुँ म कहाँ? हाँसो खोजु म के मा? मसँग सबैथोक छ र पनि मलाई आज लागिरहेको छ म एक्लो छु । मेरो कोही छैन । भएकाहरु पनि मेरा हुन् भन्ने मलाई पटक्कै लागिरहेको छैन । मानौ म एउटा यन्त्र हुँ । कसैले चलाउँछ, थन्क्याउँछ, फेरी खोल्छ, बन्द गर्छ । जति बेला मन लाग्यो चलाउँछ, जतिबेला मन लाग्छ फालिदिन्छ, न मलाई कसैले सुन्छु, न त मैले अरुलाई सुन्नुपर्छ भन्ने महसुश नै गराउन सक्छ । बेकारको लाग्न थालेको छ जिन्दगी ।

June 14, 2010
I met Susal, friend of mine. I met her in Vermont when I was there attending three week long CONTACT program in SIT Graduate Institute Vermont USA in 2009 June. She is here with the aim of accomplishing her university research on non-violence and dialogue in peace-building. I briefly provided her my opinion on current political deadlock, and few interventions initiated by civil society. In the evening I met Tulsi ji at Zazbell restaurant had few informal talks. We watched world cup match between Japan & Cameron where Japan beat by one goal.
June 15, 2010
The day was normal as other day. I spent my time in meeting different people in office.
June 16, 2010
Not that much different than other day. Spent my time in meeting. Finalized some important task. Met a person from Bhojpur, was station manager at Chomolungma FM, a newly established Community Radio station in district. I saw Mr. Bhuwan innocent, and grateful to me, but I have done nothing special for him instead of taking him to the office.

BANDIPUR – Time and again, I heard the name of place 'Bandipur'. Have you been to Bandipur? No! Why haven't you been? You should have gone there? Bandipur is such a beautiful place people often term it queen of mountain. Indeed such a nice place, please make your visit….. and more; hit my ear for many many years. Finally, a day has come made my dream came true. Yes, I made it. 9th, 10th and 11th of June 2011 at Bandipur Moutain Resort, was indeed awesome experience of life ever lived with.
What do you feel if you see open sky, lightening galaxies, milky way and peaceful earth nothing making you feel disturbed as if you are in heaven. Yes, it is heaven. Just silence and peaceful in the night with non-stop sound generated by crickets from surrounding forest. Wah…. it was wonderful three days I spent in Bandipur. The one and only thing I missed is my wife, and son. I wanted to take them together with me, it was not possible as I was in official trip. A program called 'Youth Retreat' was organized by Youth Action Nepal and International Alert. My organization is also considered one partner of the this consortium so it happened for me to be there on such a memorable event. Hiking inside Shidda Cave, wandering around in folks were most memorable ever I had.

हामी कति निराशातीर जादैछौ भनेर अब हामीलाई कसैले भन्नु नपर्ला जस्तो लाग्छ । एउटा सामान्य नागरिक जो बिहानदेखि बेलुकासँग हातमुख जोर्न संघर्ष गरिरहेको हुन्छ, एउटा मध्यमबर्गिय परिवार जसोतसो समाजमा इज्जतिलो जिन्दगी जिउन चाहिरेको हुन्छ र उच्चबर्ग जसलाई निम्न र तल्लो बर्गिय समाजमा के हुदैछ कुनै चासो छैन, न त चासो लिने ध्याउन्न नै । सबै बर्ग आज खशि छैन । निराशा धेरै छ । अत्यास बढ्दो छ । कारणहरु थुप्र्रै हुनसक्छन् । त्यसमध्ये केही यहाँ चर्चा गरौ । एकजना मित्रले केही दिन पहिले फेसबुकमा आफ्नो स्टाटस् सन्देश लेखे, यो देशमा अब शहरीया र गाउँलेको दुरी अकास्सिन्छ? धनि र गरिवको खाडल झनै फराकिलो र गरिहो पनि हुन्छ । उच्च बर्ग आकासिन्छ? सबभन्दा गरिवहरु अझै भाँसिन्छन्, मध्यम बर्ग न तल झर्छ न माथि नै उक्लन्छ, उ एउटा भ्रममा दुवैतिरको नभै जिन्दगी जिउछ जुन जिन्दगीको न उसलाई आवश्यकता छ, न त अरुलाई त्यसको महत्व बुझाउन नै सक्छ । मेरा मित्र एउटा सामान्य नागरिक हुन् । तत्लो बर्गिय मध्यमबर्गलाई प्रतिनिधत्व गर्छन् । उनी एउटा सामाजिक सवाल र संचारलाई बिषयबस्तु बनाएर काम गर्ने संस्थाको कनिष्ठ कर्मचारी हुन् । काठमाण्डौभन्दा तथाकथित मोफसलमा बस्छन् । राजनीतिक पृष्ठभुमिले ओतप्रोत वातावरणमा हुर्केका भएपनि मित्र राजनीति गर्दैनन् । समग्रमा भन्दा उनलाई राजनीतिभन्दा पनि त्यही जागिर जोगाउनुछ, जसका लागि उनी मनमा जस्तासुकै बिचार आएपनि संस्थाको तटस्थता नितीको पालना गर्छन्, खुलेर राजनीति गर्दैनन् । तर उनले फेसबुकमा जे लेखे, त्यसलाई पटक पटक पढ्न मनलाग्यो । धेरै पटक पढेपछि मैले त्यो कुरालाई हुवहुँ कपी गरेर मेरैमा राखुजस्तो लाग्यो, तर मन पर्यो मात्र भन्नु उत्तम ठाने मैले । किनभने उनको तर्कमा तागत छ जस्तो लाग्यो । उनले बर्तमान परिस्थितीलाई गहन अध्ययन गरेर भविष्यको संकेत गरेका छन्, जुन कुनै समाजशास्त्रिले गर्ने चिन्तनभन्दा फरक हैन जस्तो लाग्यो मलाई । उनको अभिव्यक्तिमा आशा हैन निराशाको झिल्को दन्किएको छ । उनी कतै कुनै पनि यस्तो ठाउँ देख्दैनन् जसले उनलाई केही राम्रो हुदैछ भन्ने ढाडस दिओस् । उनले मात्र किन यस्तो सोचे, कतै म पनि यस्तै सोचिरहेको छु तर भन्न पो सकिरहेको पो छैन की? अहिले भैरहेको निराशाजन्य परिस्थितीमा हामीले देखेका, सुनेका, भोगेको तमाम यथार्थपरक घटनाले यस्तै भन्छ हामी आशाबादी हुन छोड्यौ । शंकालु धेरै, अविश्वासी अति, निरास । किनभने हामीले अहिले पढिरहेका शब्दहरु केलाउँ, हेरिरहेका दृष्यहरु पछ्याउ् । सुनिरहेका कुराहरु सम्झौ ।
बिहानै सबभन्दा पहिले सुन्ने समाचारमा हामी सुन्छौ कुरा मिलेन, निष्कर्ष बिहीन, खिचातानी, विवाद, झगडा, मृत्यु, मृत्युदर बढ्दो, मुल्य बढ्दो, आकाशियो, धर्ना, जुलुस, बन्द, हड्ताल, घाटा, सिमा अतिक्रमण, उनीहरु जिम्मेवार हामी चोखा, दोषी, आरोप, आदी । यी मध्ये केही शब्दहरु सकारात्मक रुपमा प्रयोग हुन्छन् । तर हामीकहाँ अहिले नकारात्मक रुपमा प्रयोग हुन्छन् । अनि हामी सबैभन्दा पहिले सुन्छौ यस्तै शब्द र शुरु हुन्छ हाम्रो दिन । अघिल्लोदिन १९ रुपैयाँमा किनेको दुध भोलिपल्ट बिहान २० रुपैयाँ हुन्छ । दाँत किटेर पैसा तिर्नुबाहेक हामीसँग किन भनेर प्रश्न गर्ने क्षमता हराएको छ । आज १० रुपैयामा पाइने आलु भोली ४० रुपैया हुदाँ पनि हामी खान बाध्य छौ । हामी सोध्छौ त्यो भैया व्यापारिलाई जसले आफै भाडा बढाएको हुदैन । जतासुकै महंगी बढीरहेको अवस्थामा केही कुराको दाम घट्यो भने हामी पत्याउनै छोड्यौ । राम्रो जोक हुनसक्छ यस्तो कुरा । राजनीतिमा पनि त्यस्तै । कतै मिलेको, सहकार्यको राम्रो उदाहरण छैन । आरोप प्रत्यारोप, अविश्वास, छेड हानाहान् । आर्थिक अवस्था सुधारउन्मुख छैन । ए बाबा, यो चाँही राम्रो भनेर हामीले भन्ने ठाउँ नै छैन अहिले । जतासुुकै नराम्रो, जतासुकै खराव । अनि यस्तो बेलामा हामी कसरी आशाबादी हुने त? के चाहेर मात्र भइन्छ आशाबादी? आशाबादी हुनका लागि निराशाबादी व्यवहार, घटनाहरु यो समाजमा कम भएभने मात्र हामी आशोन्मुख जिन्दगी जिउन सक्छौ, हैन भने सधै निराशोन्मुख, अनि मेरा मित्रले फेसबुकमा भनेको कुरा सहि हैन भनेर पत्याउने आधार पनि छैन आजको दिनमा यसो घोत्लिँदा ।